Earlier this year, I chose not to participate in the Las Vegas Super & Sprint weekend. I kept it pretty quiet, and didn't advertise that I was or wasn't going. Even though my reasons for not participating were valid, I felt really guilty and extremely weak for not "Spartan-ing UP!" And just doing it anyway.
The Big Bear race is this weekend, and I have decided not to race as I had originally planned. The process of not participating in an event and transferring that unused registration for another future event is called deferment. Spartan has posted new deferment instructions, tips, and FAQ's on their help website, check it out for more specific instructions on how to defer your race and transfer credit. (Spartan Race Help - Deferment)
Even though I have chosen to defer Vegas and Big Bear for different reasons, I struggle emotionally with the decision to defer a race, and I want to share some of those issues with you to help you recognize when you might want to think about deferring an event yourself.
(This is not a step-by-step checklist for you to use to decide whether or not to race. It is an insight into the mind of a Spartan who has made that decision twice, which might help you make your own.)
As always, I kicked my Spartan Race season off with the Arizona race weekend, this year a Super. As luck would have it, this wasn't a very positive season opener - I tweaked my knee and did not feel empowered at the finish line. Life and I have had a really weird stalemate going on and from the middle of February to about two weeks ago I have been very depressed, and had a hard time finding joy in the things that used to make me light up. This black cloud unfortunately included Spartan Races, and I felt like such an idiot for mouthing off about running a double Trifecta in 2018.
To sum things up, I'm feeling a lot tougher mentally, and while part of that has to do with some awesome personal development tools I've found, I also had an amazing time at the LA Stadium Sprint and re-discovered a lot of what makes me love these events!